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Sunday, January 29, 2006 @ 1/29/2006 09:30:00 PM it's been 2days since bb last msg me le.. ): i noe he's v fan recently.. with e tings in hand & him nt knowin wad he reali wans.. hais.. thus me nv initiated to msg/call him.. wo hao xiang hao xiang ta wor.. ta zhi dao ma? wen i hav nth 2 d0.. he will cum 2 my mind.. wen i hear sad s0ngs.. my hrt seems 2 b piercin.. ]= i will den stare in blank spare & al0tta tings will cum 2 my mind.. *sighs* sumtimes i even wonder whether i've depression 0r split pers0nality.. -__-"' at times i seem ok.. can kan de kai.. den after awhile, change le.. liek so kai bu kai lo.. kaos.. how how how? i crazy le la.. nid a psychiatrist!! if my presence onli brin him unhappiness.. i rather disappear.. or even nt existed.. guess im gonna MIA fr him till v'day ba.. den v'day is liek his bday tt time.. e "last" ting i gonna do 4 him again.. any nice ideas wat i can do ma? hee.. tt time his bday i did e ting.. was kinda my+sherry idea 2gether.. (; life is reali unpredictable.. g0tta n0e des & grace dun hab le.. *sighs* alth0u zai yi qi s0 l0ng le.. even intend get married.. but hu n0es end up lidat.. h0pes des's fine w0r.. |
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Friday, January 27, 2006 @ 1/27/2006 07:53:00 PM cant believe im now outside my hse de staircase surfing e net now.. -___-" din haf e keys 2 my hse.. so here im.. hais~ lucki still gt wireless peii me.. if nt i sure boreds 2 tears.. been lazy 2 update recently.. seems as thou mani tings hab happened.. ytd met ah bell after sch 2 sh0p.. t0wn->bugis.. after tt went alan k0r de bday bbq at east c0ast.. wen we reach dere.. b0ib0i was aready dere.. daryl & his frens t0o.. liek gt divided int0 2 l0r e area.. hais.. den his frens saw me.. e atm0sphere & gan jue guai guai de l0r.. dunn0 hw 2 say.. den b0ib0i & ah bell g0 dunn0 whr t0k.. s0rt 0f leave me al0ne dere.. wah.. liek i l0st cans.. dunn0 wad 2 d0 l0r.. den take f0ne 0ut call ppl le.. )): called quite a n0. but dunn0 y n0ne picked up.. thus walked 2 e st0ne dere 0n e way.. sat by e sea with al0tta c0ckr0aches! 0mg.. *s0bx* dun dare 2 m0ve.. + sadded.. tinkin.. y m i al0ne 2 cheng sh0u all tis by myself? ))= luckily serene was dere.. jane t0o.. thx girls.. *hugs* u all called in time 2 c0ns0le me.. hais.. ah bell called after tt ask me whr i MIA t0.. nel & j0yce reached s0on after & i went backie t0o.. tink b0ib0i din saw me.. he wentta find me.. den he c0py me MIA os0.. i say he nt cre8tive.. hahaa.. 0nli 1 0f daryl's fren din treat me liek dey d0? but c0s i tink he os0 has smth 4 me tt's y.. =X had a talk with serene & knew tt b0ib0i nw v fan & luan.. he dunn0 wad he wans nw.. but she can tell him can c tt i treat him v gd.. he n0es t0o.. liek example c0s scared he hungry can cum dwn all e way 2 pw pack f0od 4 him 2 eat.. she dun even treat her 0wn bf lidat.. l0l~ kn0win abt tis.. i dunn0 wad 2 d0 even m0re ba.. but since lidat.. i tink all e m0re i wun g0 & fan b0ib0i n0w.. might even g0 int0 MIA? *l0st* dunn0 wen ah bell talk wib b0ib0i 0n e f0ne den say i'll leave earli c0s papa backie & stuffs.. b0ib0i say he'll send me hme.. ((: desm0nd came fr hme & br0ught my extra helmet.. hee.. den b4 g0in hme.. j0yce was liek abit fake? she t0ld b0ib0i - drive carefulli h0r.. if ade gt anyting happen, i ch0p 0ff ur head.. errr? 0ways 0n daryl side de her sudd liek.. dunn0 hw 2 say nehs.. den we walked 0ff 2gether with everyone c-in? infr0nt 0f daryl & frens t0o.. =xX kinda regretted nt stayin till late.. hais.. )): c0s dey stil had pr0grams after e bbq session.. *humphs* my papa came back at e wrg time.. =x 0h ya.. b4 i 4gt.. my went & t0ok a divinati0n l0t at bugis temple.. c0s i reali dunn0 wad 2 d0 & i needed some guidance? hmms.. i gt a shang shang qian 4 e ting i asked/prayed f0r.. at least i felt abit m0re at ease ba.. h0pefulli.. i rem m0ussie 0nce said tt we shld d0 it with believe & sincere.. if u reali believe in g0d.. he/she will ans 2 ur prayers de.. tt's y i qiu de qian.. shall wait patiently.. jiay0o 0h ade!!~ i can d0 it 0nce again de.. *prays* tis is e last chance given 2 e b0th 0f us.. can we survive tis 0rdeal? |
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Sunday, January 22, 2006 @ 1/22/2006 10:06:00 PM wentta check out my grades 4 tis m0dule.. stunned!! i gt a B for my java UT2.. cant believe it.. omg.. hope i can scrape thru e UT on wed t0o.. *prays* s0 far my sys analysis m0dule shi zui ke yi make it de.. hahaa.. web mus buck up oledi.. if nt liek can die lidats.. =xX smth meaningful i found in sum1's frenster :: 遇到你最爱的人，然后体会到爱的感觉； 因为了解被爱的感觉，所以才能发现最爱你的人； 当你经历过爱人与被爱，学会了爱，才会知道什么是你需要的，也才会找到最适合你，能够相处一辈子的人。 你最爱的，往往没有选择你； 最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的； 而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的， 只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。 没有人是故意要变心的，他爱你的时候是真的爱你， 可是他不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了， 他爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你；同样的，他不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你 。 当一个人不爱你要离开你， 你要问自己还爱不爱他， 如果你也不爱他了，千万别为了可怜的自尊而不肯离开； 如果你还爱他，你应该会希望他过得幸福快乐， 希望他跟真正爱的人在一起，绝不会阻止， 你要是阻止他得到真正的幸福，就表示你已经不爱他了， 而如果你不爱他，你又有什么资格指责他变心呢？ 爱不是占有， 你喜欢月亮，不可能把月亮拿下来放在脸盆里， 但月亮的光芒仍可照进你的房间。 换句话说，你爱一个人，也可以用另一种方式拥有， 让爱人成为生命里的永恒回忆， 如果你真爱一个人，就要爱他原来的样子-爱他的好，也爱他的坏： 爱他的优点，也爱他的缺点， 绝不能因为爱他，就希望他变成自己所希望的样子， 万一变不成就不爱他了。真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的， 你只知道无论何时何地、心情好坏，你都希望这个人陪著你； 真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，也就是没有丝毫要求。毕竟，感情必须付出，而不是只想获得； 分开是一种必然的考验， 如果你们感情不够稳固，只好认输， 真爱是不会变成怨恨的... 有的诺言, 也许永远不可能实现.. |
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Friday, January 20, 2006 @ 1/20/2006 07:50:00 AM *sighs* i needta find backie my motivati0n 2 sch w0r.. cant g0 0n lidat anym0re.. mus buckup!! -__-" sudd dun feel liek g0in sch anym0re.. seems sucha t0rture wakin up s0 earli.. sumtimes havin pr0bs & c0mmunicati0n breakd0wns in class.. as if nt learnin anyting muchie either.. nez is e PP tt we hafta submit s0on & upc0min FYP.. nt 4gtin e CE pts.. hais.. stress.. alth0u` im left 0nli ard 5+weeks 4 tis sem.. but.. i dunn0.. im afraid tt i cant grad? thus e t0t 0f nt wastin time & $ 0ways recurr.. )): wad m i supp0sed 2 d0? can sum1 enlighten me? nez.. im g0nna make an eff0rt 2 lead a healthy lifestyle nw.. my papa's cumin backie fr 0verseas t0o.. means n0 m0re late nites 0ut 4 me much 4 me le.. g0nna b "cinderella" 0nce again? = sherry~ xiexie ni 4 last nite w0r.. i felt much betta after t0kin 2 ya last nite.. culdnt getta slp de.. summ0re liek tinkin al0t tings ar.. t0k 2 u le much lighter & relax.. hee.. cya 0n sat w0r.. *hugs* ((: went tts h0s 0n wed wib b0ib0i cash serene & k0r.. dahuairen had an accident.. as a fren, reali h0pe he rec0ver s0on w0r.. *prays* may he tink tings 0ut durin tis peri0d 0f time t0o & "gr0w up".. dun make e same 0ld mistakes again le.. after all tt happened.. i tink we shld reali treasure wad we haf in 0ur life.. we'll nv n0e wad may happen e nez min & 0ur l0ved 0nes bside us culd jez leave us any time.. havin t0k wib cash.. i will gib b0ib0i time.. *waitin b0at* at least im nt al0ne.. =p everyting's w0rth it.. |
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006 @ 1/18/2006 04:41:00 AM ytd met up wib fizah at bugis.. cut hair + shoppin~ WEE!! =D bought a pair of wa-wa shoes & shorts.. l0ok abit liek e pants b0ib0i os0 had w0r.. hahaa.. stil c0nsiderin whether an0t 2 buy e t0p i saw.. $26 ar.. abit nt w0rth ma? =/ ah bell os0 j0ined us.. hee.. b0ib0i called ard 8+ wen he came backie fr JB.. den we all met at PW.. sang room.. nelson, joyce, evelyn, andrew, xpd, ken & wife, gmii, fbi, bell, me & b0ib0i.. wen eve & joyce came in.. i realised smth wasnt rite le.. end up.. dey treated me as thou i was transparent.. hais.. wad for? d0es it mean tt dey befriended me cos 0f daryl? w/0ut him = w/0ut me t0o? -__-" i went int0 e rm 0nli wen dey left.. by tt time.. b0ib0i was 0ledi half-seh? l0l.. at 1st he lied 0n my sh0ulders.. after tt 0n my legs.. den he held my hands.. e feelin was undescrible.. but it was nice.. =X after which ard 2+am, we went hme.. b0ib0i sent me hm de.. 0n reachin my hse's v0id deck.. we din gt 0ff e bike.. instead sat 0n it & s0rt 0f "hug" ba.. den he went hme le.. nw is g0in 5am.. but he din tell me he hm le 0r wad.. im w0rried!! ))= h0pe nth happens w0r.. jez tt he's t0o seh & slp le.. *prays* |
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Sunday, January 15, 2006 @ 1/15/2006 09:48:00 PM been ages since i last updated my bl0gg.. mani tings happened t0o.. time 2 update~ tis yr x'mas.. s0me0ne entered my life & celeb it wib me.. we os0 walked int0 yr 2o06 2gether.. but sad 2 say.. he left me 2day? we din even make it thru` e 1st mth.. )): all i ever wanted was jus a bf tt wuld b dere 4 me wen i needed.. d0te & care abt me.. izit tt hard? if havin a bf was e same as nt havin any.. wad's e diff rite? i n0e dere will b ups & d0wns in a r/s.. & all gd tings reali cum 2 an end ba.. *sighs* i dunn0 wad's all tt's happening nw.. c0s he din reply me again.. i h0pe he's fine & well.. c0s he din wentta wk 2day & his hp isnt switched 0n either.. im rather worried abt him.. but i dun dare 2 call his hse.. wun n0e wad 2 say wen he ans.. hais.. did i hurt him? m i v bad? did i d0 anyting wrg? an0ther ting.. b0ib0i is back int0 my life 0nce again? he t0ld me tt he regretted nt treasuring me in e past & ch0osing ph0ebe 0ver me.. he wans 2 w0o me back.. ah bell say he t0t i treated him as a spare tyre 4 dahuairen in e past.. alth0u he had smth 4 me, e feelin wasnt v sure.. den ph0ebe appeared at e rite time.. thus he rejected me.. but e wrg ch0ice ba.. nw b0ib0i treats me v well.. i can say tt im quite t0uched by his acti0ns.. at least he pr0ved himself ba.. durin e peri0d 0f bein wib daryl.. i realised tings reali bcum diff wen we're 2gether.. e tings he said, he nv did.. empty pr0mises.. bl0win h0t & c0ld.. n0 time 4 me.. zh0ng br0 qing w0.. but nevertheless, dere were happie times t0o ba.. mayb b0th 0f us reali met each 0ther at e rite time.. but jus aint suitable 4 each 0ther yet ba.. lettin g0 & tinkin it 0ver might b a gd ting 4 us.. let fate decide lo.. im so s0ft-hearted.. end up.. 0nli makin myself feel s0 c0nfused.. nt kn0win wad i wan myself in e end.. =( |