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Sunday, April 30, 2006 @ 4/30/2006 08:10:00 PM nw whenever my fone rings, i'll b so hopin tt it'd b him.. but wun pin much hopes.. cos i oways get disappointed.. it's impossible tt all e calls/msgs r fr him nahx.. unexpectedly, boi jus msged me.. (is e moon blue tnite?) =X he asked me abt my condition.. i shld b satisfied/glad ba.. at least he stil cares N bothers t ask.. nw it's onli him contactin me 1st le.. i wun wanna b e 1st wan? -__-" -im missin y0o* lots.. do u even tink of me at times? |
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@ 4/30/2006 12:01:00 AM ok.. ultraman is attached i supposed.. jus wentta brpwse thru his frenster profile N i linked it 2 a gal.. saw her pic of her ridin a bike tt l0oked liek his.. N sayin e date 0f her 0n e bike etc.. shld b ba.. anyways.. cant say/do anyting.. i was e one hu let him go in e 1st place tt time.. ch0osin b0i 0ver him de.. it's all t0o late le.. anyways, wish him happiness.. fr e b0tt0m 0f my hrt.. (; |
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Saturday, April 29, 2006 @ 4/29/2006 04:12:00 PM wang zhe ni, tu ran yi zheng xin tong.. yi ci you yi ci ren na gan qing fang zong.. ni de cui ruo rang wo zou bu kai.. ni de yi lai suo yi wo cun zai.. xiang zhe ni, hai shi xiang dao xin tong.. qi dai wo zhuo de yi qie ni dou hui dong.. you yi tian zhen ru guo you yi tian.. dan yuan wo hai zai ni ji yi zhong.. -im missing y0o* terribly` ): |
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Friday, April 28, 2006 @ 4/28/2006 08:39:00 PM since JANE said i nv update blog.. i shall nw update k? HONOURED MA gal? =Pp been rather sick tis 2days.. nv go sch.. scared i cmi ar wen i in sch.. den ltr trouble ppl oso no gd.. so might as well stay at hm too.. hee.. mayb cos wed went sentosa.. rainin cats N dogs.. but stil we jus continue gtin ourselves wet in e rain N playin ard.. it jus feels nice gettin drench.. at least it seems as thou ur probs r bein washed away at tt moment.. (; saw "HER" dere.. sian 1/2! jus treated her presence as TRANSPARENT.. even wen i saw dem tgether, jus tried 2 bear wib e pain.. dere's nth else i culd do.. at 1st it was stil alrite.. dey seem as thou dey were onli strangers.. wen boi sudd bcum more sick, i was so worried N tense.. but i culd do nth.. PW ppl N "her" was dere.. fcuk it! hate tis kinda tingy.. on our way back.. saw dem tgether.. HURTS! tried 2 hack care.. & my fone died on me~ gt into water.. my mood jus gt super down.. hu noes wen sum1 ringtone "bc0s 0f y0o" rang, i jus br0ke 0ut int0 tears.. =..( i dun like c-in dem tgether.. i dun like it wen i noe all my memory in my fone is gonna get erased.. his msgs.. his pics.. dun hab le.. after wich we all went sunlight ktv at nite.. thx god she din came wib us.. =X boi was gettin so sick.. ah liao suggested buyin sum herbal tea 4 him N i went.. at least he took at wherever he went, even wen it left a lil wen he was goin hm.. i tink she lied 2 him abt smth.. but i din noe wat it was.. beansprout reported 2 boat tt she sat on weilun's bike.. N i guessed he wentta "spotchecked".. dunno y.. but i sudd gt e feelin of wantin 2 wake up ytd.. i feel like havin sum1 2 slap him hard on e face or e feelin of jumpin down fr sum high storeys N wakin up fr a dream tt i'd 4 a long time.. seems as thou it's time 4 me 2 wake up? i dunno nehs.. but i feel so neglected ytd while i was feelin so bad N unwell.. he seems as thou he jus dun care? *sighs* i gt e feelin of cheng quan dem? ): den tday.. v unexpectedly.. he msged me himself.. it's oways lidat.. he'll pull whenever i feel liek givin up.. e timin is oways so right? fcuk it!~ =X i dunno.. mayb i'll b happier if i jus dun care ba.. let tings go its own ways..? while i'd a talk wib calvin last nite.. it pondered 2 me tt i'll accept him if he'd asked me.. tings wuld den b diff tday.. but he say can re-choose again de.. dotss.. i dunno.. shall c ba.. =X -i still miss y0o* |
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006 @ 4/26/2006 12:12:00 AM i dun understand.. y did sum1 liek me even exist in tis world? went out wib si kai after sch.. tot dere was nth wrg wib jus goin out wib a fren.. but dunno y.. i felt so BAD while i was wib him.. alrite.. i admit dere was no communication brk-dwn b/w us.. we were able t crap ard liek nth.. BUT.. i felt so guilty.. as thou i did smth wrg t boiboi.. HAIS~ y e hell did i felt tis way? worse ting is.. both 0f us went dwn PW cos boat needed a song in my fone by 2day N he wanted t find ron.. end result: boiboi saw us cumin dwn tgether.. i seemed transparent t him.. he walked away into a rm N smoked.. my hrt started shatterin again.. *cracks* e pain.. it hurts alot!!! much much more dan wen i saw him tgether wib "her".. wtf? HEN TONG.. ZHEN DE HAO TONG.. culdnt take it any longer.. jus ran off N teared after sendin boat e songs.. no turnin back even wen dey called.. =..( *hurts* boat t0ld boiboi wat i told him.. he said dun tink too much, he was onli jus takin a puff.. partner N m0on says i shld b glad he has sucha reaction? he's jeal0us? bla...... i dunn0.. tt's all ba.. at least he noes hw i feel.. -wo bi yi qian hai gen ai ni le- |
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Sunday, April 23, 2006 @ 4/23/2006 01:35:00 PM worrieds. worrieds. worrieds. ): received ur msg ard 4+.. dunno y i was awake at tt time too.. jus culdnt get back t slp after tt le.. knowin u're so sick but i cant do anyting.. i felt so bad.. if onli my papa werent back in sg, i wuld hab gone t find u str.. t l0ok after u N all.. but i cant.. hais.. felt as thou i were sum ants on e wok.. shiverin.. hrt racin.. i reali hope u'll get well soon.. *silent prayers* -evryting i do 4 u.. it's worth it.. cos it's u.. i'll 0ways b dere wenever u nid.. ilu* |
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@ 4/23/2006 12:32:00 AM hmms* we jus met under my blk.. im happie.. (: habta learn 2 b zhi zhu ba.. satisfied.. at least i saw him N we talked.. relaxed N nice.. =D passed him herbal tea N sum med.. he's sick le.. hope he recovers soon wor.. *worrieds* -misses. hopefulli we'll b able t g0 escape tgether t0o. =X |
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Friday, April 21, 2006 @ 4/21/2006 08:06:00 PM wed.. angela bday @ sunlight.. moon came over my hse in e afternoon 2 slack b4 we went out at nite.. we drew N wore nice nice~ =DD reach dere jus sing N play lo.. den dey arrived tgether.. actuali nth de, but bel sudd grab hold of my hands.. den i felt e pain surgin in me le.. *sighs* dunno y.. dey tgether but dun seem liek couple? even alan asked boat abt it.. nv held hands.. he nv peii her.. one sitin in e east N one in e west.. end up one stay dere one go m.o.s.. till one time she ownself went N sit tt side.. after tt dey sang a duet.. me N boat's eyes met.. he noe e pain im goin thru ba.. thus brought me out 2 cry.. =X instead he cried.. i din.. i say i still wanna go m.o.s xian guys de.. =X wen i gt back.. mj bel N moon looked at me so fiercely.. tot i m.i.a wanna scold me.. haiyo~ tot we all culd enjoy at m.o.s.. hu noes we gt into a fight wib other ppl.. -___-" oways wanted 2 c ppl fightin, but nt my frens gettin hurt! summore he oso kena.. my hrt pract stopped beatin at tt moment.. ): gt so worried N bu an.. hais.. summore his fone dropped out in e midst -> LOST! __ end up evryting settle le.. dey went lao pa sa eat.. but me moon N rain dunwan go.. no point go le den c smths we dun wanna c.. shit! ron N his frens fang xin bu xia we 3 gals go back in ourselves so dey peii us.. so gd... jus dance our nites thru lo.. gonna noe 2guys dere.. one is ron's fren.. another is dance's time noe de.. =X jus nw tok on fone wib boat.. he asked me whether tmr sentosa on? but she'll b goin too.. thus my ans = NO althou dey say he nv intend 2 ask her go de.. but, i dun care.. e fact is tt SHE'S GOIN.. i dun wanna face such tings again.. den wen i heard dey go loyang after wk last nite.. den to jalan kayu.. den he packed prata 4 her till hougang, HURTS~ it jus hurts.. tears jus wanna flow out la.. shit! mayb i'll nv exist in tt grp ever again ba........... -alot tots runnin thru`z my mind i dunno wat or hw i nid a brk! can i nt face it? *argh* fcuk it~ [2days N stil counting..] |
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@ 4/21/2006 10:17:00 AM sudd i feel awaken.. as if bei huan xing fr a dream in my slp? dunno nehs.. e words said by sunny N moon.. "as if bei zao sai hen duo ci.." "zai ni mian qian wan nu ren.." *sighs* mayb it's true after all.......................... -dilemma ): |
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006 @ 4/19/2006 10:18:00 AM okays.. im awake so earli in e mornin wen i hab no sch! boohoohoo~ *hmphs* boat woke me up in e middle of nowhr jus nw.. since he's tokin 2 his "dao-gay" nw, i shall blogg.. =P shun bian wait 4 his call back lo.. hahaa.. he's lames nahx.. says hu noes end up is me N him tgether.. nt he N bel.. -__-" e probability is v lil i can say.. almost IMPOSSIBLE.. *blehs* boats.. our fates r so similar.. rem wat u said.. tgether we're loved.. tgether we were jilted N thrown aside.. tgether we were hurt N left alone.. hais.. u even asked me whether our fates will oways b tis similar as time goes by.. i dare nt say.. =X e pain we're goin thru.. i guess onli we both noe it so well.. thou other ppl noes it too, but we as e one tt go thru it ourselves N at e same time, understands it best.. tt's y sumtimes u'd rather confide in me dan in bel rite? i noe.. hen tong.. zhen de hen tong.. tt's y it oso hurts me wenever i c u givin up on urself, livin in ur own world - bein drunk.. i noe wen u're lidat, i cant b too.. at least dere's stil 1 dere.. tt's wat boats r for.. (; wonder y do we(tis kinda ppl) exists in tis world? hahaa.. -xiang nian de xin, zhuang man de dou shi ni wo de gang qing, tan zou de dou shi ni wo de ri ji, xie man de dou shi ni de ming zai fa xian, you yi ge li ming zhe shi ai ni de lei ji- |
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Tuesday, April 18, 2006 @ 4/18/2006 04:42:00 PM jus nw gib boiboi mornin call.. guess wad? 56 missed calls b4 he finali woke up wor.. hahaa.. piggy hor? bths~ =X but stil lose 2 moon - 59 missed calls 2 victor lols.. |
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Monday, April 17, 2006 @ 4/17/2006 10:36:00 PM hmm.. e ting b/w b0i N me has been settled le.. t0k it 0ut wib him tis time instead 0f kipin quiet le.. i believe him.. if nt, y b0ther 2 ask in e 1st place.. i can say.. tings r goin on well 4 us nw ba.. jus tt at times wen i c "her", i'll get upset.. e w0und hurts back as l0ng as "her" presence is dere.. fcuk it! as wat b0at 0ways say.. hahaa.. shall upl0ad e neoprints tt we t0ok as s0on as i find a way 2 scan it k? hee.. wed.. sunlight -> M.O.S t0 g0 0r nt t0 g0? e t0t 0f c-in "her" dere makes me dr0p e idea nahx.. shit! i admit i'll b jeal0us if i c dem tgether.. hurhur.. mayb even g0nna g0 crazy whilst clubbin.. "find a guy N get 0ver it" LOL~ but jus playin ard ba.. *oops* eg. wils0n hahaa.. nvm.. b0at will acc me, he say de.. he os0 nt chi0ngster liek me.. e 4 0f us.. left 0nli e 2 0f us single-in 0ver here.. =X -even if u're in NS, u said once u book out, u'll meet me.. (: //*miss u |
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006 @ 4/11/2006 11:56:00 AM 0kies.. since qun zong yao qiu, i shall leave my LAZINESS aside n start bloggin dwn wat has happened ever since e last time i last updated ba.. wahahas~ des' bday n chalet - durin e 1st 2days n nites, i admit.. i was jealous at wat b0i had d0ne.. all i saw/heard was jus him sendin her hm, goin her hse n brin her 2 e chalet, brin her hm den go wk, goin 0ut wib her+Mingde+charmaine n all 4 sharin a rm tgether.. thus i din t0k 2 him.. din even wanna b0ther abt him.. jus sh0win e face dere.. LL.. =X - until e 2nd nite, b0at, bel, me n him t0k abt her.. ( sh0rt intr0 0f her : crystal, 17/18, new PT waitress @ partyworld, xiaolians, tall n thin) b0i said he din even wanna send her/let her sit on his bike t0 n fr0 de.. is c0s Mingde keep askin b0i g0 fetch her 2 peii his gf.. -__-" b0at t0ld me b0i din like her.. he said ta bu xi huan zhe zong.. den dey 3 even bet c b0i will take hw l0ng 2 xian da0 ta.. l0ser will drink 2mugs.. *faints* alth0u i n0e dey playin, but i jus dun like it? 0k l0r.. if xian da0 already den h0w? hais.. - was glad tt 'she' din appear any more at e chalet after tt.. =X - durin e 2nd nite, des, bel, me, b0i, b0at n r0n shared 1rm tgether.. c0s Mingde n charmaine shared an0ther tgether wherevy e rm stinks due 2 dem eatin inside.. n0b0dy wanted 2 j0in dem.. hahaa.. while slpin time, b0at n bel purp0sely create e centre place 4 me n b0i 2 slp in side by side.. hurhur.. w/0ut any b0ther/care, we slpt.. whilst slpin.. b0i was slpin near 2 me wen he sudd held my hands 2 slp.. *stunned* at tt pt 0f time, i 0nli wished tt time wuld st0p.. =X wen bel snatched my blanket away, he will share his wib me & help me 2 gai bei bei.. den he hugged me 2 slp.. e feelin was jus so nice.. (: - in e mornin, des tried 2 wake everyone up.. he opened our blankets & t0ld b0i.. e pest0r is here, can get prepared n marry le.. evry1 is present.. *dotss* den everybody luff.. wen bel ask him y he said tis, he add on.. liang ge sui jiao bao dao zhe me jing, can get married le la.. - e last nite was e BBQ nite.. boat n bel wanted 2 leave go hm earlier in e mornin.. den i dunno whether 2 leave oso anot.. hahaa.. bel say i she bu de.. =.= - wat happened was, b0at played wib alan, wenming, huiqun dey all.. den lose dey mus drink nic 0f dunn0 wat liqu0r.. den b0at l0st l0.. n he dunn0 hw 2 drink de.. cum ask me help him drink.. wah.. after helpin him drink all tt he l0st, eeeks~ e gan jue v er.. it's burin h0t inside my b0dy l0.. den sl0wly i can feel e 'highness' lia0s.. s0 i went up 2 e r0om n K.O.. =P after tt bel, b0at n b0i came up le.. realised i da0 le, s0 b0i say lemmi slp l0.. ltr bel dey all can g0 hm 1st.. - i wasnt reali gone totalli.. stil can hear wat dey t0kin.. hahaa.. den b0at n bel t0ld him wat i said abt e time will st0p at tt pt all tt.. ba0 t0e sia.. l0ls.. after tt dey hungry pull me dwn go bbq.. -___-" bel n b0at left n0 l0ng after.. den des n ah h0 targetted me again.. drink drank drunk~ till i cant takt it again, i went up myself 2 K.O l0.. hee.. - nt l0ng after, b0i came up n l0oked 4 me.. he bathed & cum peii me slp le.. tis time we all n0 nid 2 squeeze tgether, c0s bell n b0at g0 le.. hahahahaha.. but n0b0dy wanna cum inside & share e rm wib us.. dey rather g0 an0ther rm.. 0k l0r.. end up dey 5 shared a rm tgether.. - m0rnin surprise.. b0i was slpin right bside me onli.. l0ls.. 1single bed wib e 2 0f us.. e rest 0f e 3mattress we din use.. =X hugs 2 slp till m0rnin den we b0ok 0ut le.. - at nite was des' sis bday at pw again.. actuali din wanna go de.. budden end up gt ting so went lo.. t0ok care 0f des' sis dere.. she was drunk n upset n keep cryin n screamin away.. realised we girls can b reali so foolish n silly jus 4 a guy we like so much.. after tt dunno y crystal joined us, i was unhappy.. wenever her presence is near, my hrt aches.. hais~ b0i n bel j0ined us after deir wk at 3.. played n sang tgether~ twards e end, i was seh! my b0dy was p0werless, jus keep wantin 2 fall.. swayed while walkin.. n finali i v0mitted! =X 1st time ever tt i v0mitted while drinkin.. e feelin scuks~ *pukes* den b0i sent me hm le.. e wh0le j0urney i was jus huggin him n slpin.. =X tt's all 4 nw ba.. s0 tired after updatin.. hees.. feel liek napin awhile.. will c0ntinue again wen i cum back k? lols.. =P |
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Sunday, April 02, 2006 @ 4/02/2006 02:04:00 PM w0oh0o~ a brk fr wk till fri.. finali met up wib a few 0f my darlinks!! - cl0ud dear dear - eve N j0yce - ver0n - m0on N rain(ltr) miss dem sh0 muchie.. *muacks*hugs* kkz.. it's time 4 me 2 MIA.. hee.. will b updatin wen i cum back nez fri k? DUN MISS ME~~~ =Pp stay tuned................ |